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salienneWalking home from camp today, I was having the most random thoughts. Not random because I've never had them before but random because the TIMING was just so random. o.O I mean, walking to the T from camp...? Go figure.
My thoughts:
I wish religion were real. I wish there were a Higher Power, a God, an afterlife, a paradise, reincarnation, SOMETHING. I wish I believed in these. Honestly, I REALLY wish I believed. I fool myself sometimes into saying that I believe. But I don't. I believe that we just end, and this terrifies me. I mean, it's not only that we're meaningless. Each of us is just going to... end one day. Think of it. In just 100 years, probably less, each and every one of us will be gone. These thoughts we have, whether musing or happy or depressed or whatnot, will be over. WE'LL be over. I don't WANT to be over but I will be. And when I REALLY think about it, think about the great span of things in regards to me 100 years from now, I see nothing. NOTHING. I don't exist. I'm gone. That's just... really, really scary.
And this is why I think man has always had to have its religions, its afterlives, its hopes. I'm not saying I don't believe in the spiritual. I do, in very rare cases. Healing, psychics, etc., I'm sure it's happened. But ghosts, actual ghosts of ppl... I just don't believe it. We're animals and I view us as such. I believe we just... stop. So... yeah.
I'm done.
Ta mates.
My thoughts:
I wish religion were real. I wish there were a Higher Power, a God, an afterlife, a paradise, reincarnation, SOMETHING. I wish I believed in these. Honestly, I REALLY wish I believed. I fool myself sometimes into saying that I believe. But I don't. I believe that we just end, and this terrifies me. I mean, it's not only that we're meaningless. Each of us is just going to... end one day. Think of it. In just 100 years, probably less, each and every one of us will be gone. These thoughts we have, whether musing or happy or depressed or whatnot, will be over. WE'LL be over. I don't WANT to be over but I will be. And when I REALLY think about it, think about the great span of things in regards to me 100 years from now, I see nothing. NOTHING. I don't exist. I'm gone. That's just... really, really scary.
And this is why I think man has always had to have its religions, its afterlives, its hopes. I'm not saying I don't believe in the spiritual. I do, in very rare cases. Healing, psychics, etc., I'm sure it's happened. But ghosts, actual ghosts of ppl... I just don't believe it. We're animals and I view us as such. I believe we just... stop. So... yeah.
I'm done.
Ta mates.
